still so low, so low ..

actually i wasnt sick ytd, just didnt hve th mood to attend schl.
i thought maybe i could tke th day to relief my thoughts. but well ..
one day isnt enough. but i felt so much bttr doing things as & when i like.
i went to schl with a cheerful mood tday. i thought everything could be put bhind.
...

passed lessons with okayokay-mood. i tried very hard to stay happy.
so first period i laughed my heart out, seriously.
i love th feeling of laughing, of being happy. i somehw missed it.
where has th cheerful jesselyn gone? there. covered in th crowd.
im finding myslf back, i really am. hw long it'll take, tht i cant assure you.
felt so much bttr aftr talking things out. im glad he undrstands.
& hey. you've got th chnce to badmouth me bhind my back again.
i've proved you right. i'll hurt lendl, im nt faithful.
haha. thn congrats! you'll have th chnce to do so. you knw who you are.

im sorry. im sucha letdown. ):