i've let you down baby.

if you're concerned about me & lendl's relationship, well, we havent broke up.
maybe we both just need some time to do some soul-searching. especially me.
i told him, 3days. just 3days. but sis knws it, it isnt easy.
3days is sucha short period to forget someone tht i took months to forget.
im trying very hard baby, im sry i've let you down.

suffering in agony, i dnt knw hw.
you may think im your so called 'what' , or 'hongster' or whtever you wna name.
im feeling so upset, so disppointed. worst of all, with noone else but myslf.
im sucha disppointment to you guys, im sorry ):

but isnt love selfish?
sis told me she'll support my decision.
yet she's trying to make him give up on ****, & make me love lendl.
hw can i possibly be missing smone, while on th other hand,
im suppose to love another? im sorry i cant do it.

i dnt deny i love lendl. yes i love him.
i appreciate him for fetching me frm schl, fetching me home everyday.
that's wht most girls hope their bf could do for them. isnt it?
imma girl too, im glad i've got a bf like him.
i cant feel anything else but to be happy. happy that i've got him.
but well. im just disppointed in myslf this time.

mixed feelings. im sorry baby.